For reference: I am quite gay. I have been recently vaguely wondering whether identifying as bi would be helpful. Probably not, given the ratios of people I find attractive.
It is kind of hard to see myself in that impression of me. I am somewhat reserved, yes. It is hard shell of hardness which will protect me from the world. Vibes. Hmm. How do people transmit sexual vibes usually? It is not something I am aware of at all. The thing is, most of the time I am either (a) recovering from being rejected, and (b) recovered from being rejected and trying to avoid people in general who I might be attracted to. I've certainly not been looking the last couple of times I got interested in people.
I feel a bit like I've not met enough new people recently. I have not been out night-clubbing for ages, due in part to headaches (but also the last few times I didn't particularly enjoy it) - I need to fix that. But the idea of pulling someone in a nightclub is just an alien concept to me.
You do, however, speak sense, and I do need to fix my behaviour in that way. I just don't know if that's even possible.
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Date: 2008-03-17 11:13 pm (UTC)For reference: I am quite gay. I have been recently vaguely wondering whether identifying as bi would be helpful. Probably not, given the ratios of people I find attractive.
It is kind of hard to see myself in that impression of me. I am somewhat reserved, yes. It is hard shell of hardness which will protect me from the world. Vibes. Hmm. How do people transmit sexual vibes usually? It is not something I am aware of at all. The thing is, most of the time I am either (a) recovering from being rejected, and (b) recovered from being rejected and trying to avoid people in general who I might be attracted to. I've certainly not been looking the last couple of times I got interested in people.
I feel a bit like I've not met enough new people recently. I have not been out night-clubbing for ages, due in part to headaches (but also the last few times I didn't particularly enjoy it) - I need to fix that. But the idea of pulling someone in a nightclub is just an alien concept to me.
You do, however, speak sense, and I do need to fix my behaviour in that way. I just don't know if that's even possible.