(you know more about the specifics than nearly anyone who has commented, by the way, so i hope that perception of me is not typical. it is interesting to contrast that with comments of other people).

Certainly hanging around with poly/bi people is going to be a slight advantage.

I'm not sure that this doesn't make it worse, actually. Lots of people having lots of relationships about me.

Anyway, I'm wondering if some of your painful infatuation might be due to plain old ordinary touch-deprivation, and if completely non-sexual physical contact on a regular basis might help you feel better.

I do like non-sexual physical contact and I do not get anywhere near enough of it. Maybe I'd be happy in a non-sexual romantic relationship, even. I won't really know what I'm looking for until I've found it.